ORLANDO, FL, Feb. 7 /MidnightOutpost.com/ – Original Objective. When I registered the domain name “midnightoutpost.com”, I had in mind to use it to make enough money to support me, save the money and buy stocks again while now I earn my way with this portfolio management again, and then to become “a place to go when 'you' have no other place to go at midnight.” It was to have a real property that provided a place to stay when people had no other place to go to at midnight (I don't have this now). I had a place like this before the local legal system in southeast Alabama persisted until my funds were exhausted and it coincidently relieved me of the rest of my funds as well. It was used mostly by young women 19 to 25 years old, saying that they wanted to earn their independence, however some young men of the same age group stating the same purpose, used it as well. Most of these people came from an abusive, coercive environment (frequently from the local “batter women” federally supported facility, “The House of Ruth”), often from their “family” by birth, foster or adoption, home.

Each attempt at MidnightOutpost.com (since I registered it) to earn has been thwarted by an entity or force that is bigger than me and I don't believe in “fighting the universe”. I do however, believe that “there is that force in the universe, that can appear negative at times but is really there to help you [achieve your dreams]” – The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho.

So, with no funds aside from my near minimum wage job at Universal Orlando, barely making enough to have an extra $5.00 a week to save, I decide that now I must, since my attempts to earn have been halted, redirect MidnightOutpost.com to its original objective of being a place to go where people have no other place to go at midnight. Let's see if that is what Universe is telling me. hm... May have to go there myself. My daughter may have to go there (maybe not, she is with her “in love with” person).

Where I disagree with “The Alchemist” is, in the book, he sets out to make a fortune then goes to his “in love with” person. This is what the alchemist wants first, money. I believe go to my “in love with” person first then us set out to make our fortune. Well, my “in love with” person - I now have to move away from for my actions to show my intentions and also she is pushing me away. I'm easy to push away, this is not what happened when I moved to Atlanta (universe did it then). Since my “in love with” person pushed me away this time, She must now contact me first. She had attracted me (we knew each other over 2 years and I went back to her when I moved back from Atlanta to Orlando) and then she used that attraction to push me away this time.

I already know that she is not a gold digger. She knows what I am capable of earning in a just society. She has seen the IRS documents. So, if I earn large amounts of money now and she then contacts me, then she must have changed since pushing me away, to become a now gold digger. I don't believe that she will become a gold digger.

I believe that I see why my “in love with” person is pushing me away. Which mean that she does not. When she sees the truth, I believe love will remain with those that have ever loved (love does not die), and she will contact me. She said, “who knows when that will be?” (LOVE can remain repressed this entire lifetime.) My answer to when that will be, God knows. Notice that she didn't say “if” that will be.

If our only purpose in this lifetime is to make friends, couples, find loves, in which a next lifetime these people are soul mates that we MAY meet -then we have spent this lifetime well. I don't remember previous lifetimes, although I know people that have told me that they do. I do believe in soul mates, I've been fortunate enough to have met three of them. And I continue to love them all. (My ex wife was not a soul mate in this life time and with her now character, if it continues to the next lifetime, I don't want her to be a soul mate then.)

Two of the soul mates must contact me and one I must contact and so far I have not made a real attempt. I want my now “in love with” person. If you have ever met a soul mate then you know that you recognize a “soul mate” almost immediately. It is similar to what people confuse as love at first sight, I believe. Even a first impression of a soul mate meeting is not enough for me to go away from her now, even with her pushing (right now). How do I know? I had a first impression that is almost perfect and that was stronger than the soul mate meeting although she was not a soul mate. (I see thousands of women each day at work and have lots of first impressions.) And this almost perfect first impresion started to come to me, until another woman near me that I know “scared” her away. A soul mate would not have left. I didn't get that soul mate meeting either. Just almost perfect first impression. I didn't go toward her and I have no plans to do that.

So, I believe that now is the time to make MidnightOutpost.com a place to go when “you” have no other place to go at midnight. I may have no other place to go. My daughter may have no other place to go. My “in love with” person may have no other place to go. Even if she does, I want her to come here and to me. God, love, my “in love with” person and time will tell. I did all that I could to put it there. If I didn't put it there then I didn't have what it takes to do that, I could have done more only for my daughter (only my daughter is more important to me). If the decision is with God, love, my “in love with” person and time, then can it be in better hands?